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i realized last night that i really don't like most of the things i do.

i was sitting in my common room, eating chips and salsa, and watching Tommy Wiseau's "The Room."

i really love that movie.

but i don't want to sit and watch movies anymore.

there's too much to be done.

there's too many things that i could be doing that i'm not.

if you're lucky enough to be friends with interesting, fun people, don't waste their company watching movies.

especially "The Room."

i've been working on a novella for some time now, and it's always just been in the back of my mind.

i'm going to be writing a lot more now.

i also plan on going home this week, and although he doesn't know it yet, nilla and i will be recording a little EP or something.

i think i've lost sight of the things that really matter to me.

i'm just focusing on cheap thrills.

there is a thrill in becoming very drunk and stumbling around for an hour.

but when it's an organized event, that's fucking pitiful.

if all of the people that get together to drink at uconn stopped, nothing would happen.

humanity has nothing to gain from their behavior, and everything to lose.

i just want to do something that i can be proud of.

so when someone asks me what i did on a friday night, i can tell them something that will make them think.

i've been saying this for a long time now, but i really want to get into photography.

i'm surrounded by a typical college campus, filled with mostly boring people, but i would give a lot to be able to walk around on a sunny day and take their pictures.

i'm joining a club next semester. whatever club is the most absurd, that is what i will join.

-Jizzy T