confession

oh, hello. i didn't hear you come in.

it's been a fucking long couple of weeks, ladies and gentlemen. so goddamn long.

sit down, this might be a long one.

i guess i've just been feeling off lately.

"off" is a good way of putting it.

alot of things are going well in my life.

apartment is good.

school is good.

friends are good.

i might even have a job!

i mean, shit.

but i've just been feeling dried up lately.

i'm not really happy with my direction in life, and i have realized that if i don't find something worth fighting for soon, i'm going to crawl into a cubicle for 40 years and then retire. then die.

no, that's stupid. too dramatic.

simply, i'm bored.

i'm bored and i want others to comfort me in my moments of boredom.

there you go. thats truthful.

i keep thinking to myself. "it'll get better when school starts."

but i'm not really convincing myself.

maybe i'm just getting bored of uconn.

maybe i really just want to fall in love.

oh, just shoot me.

-Jizzy T